Love.

A few days ago, Brian and I talked quite a bit about Olivia's diet. We decided to add gluten back.

And just as it was hard to make the decision to go gluten-free, it was equally as hard (if not harder) to add it back to her diet.

Because we don't know. We don't know if she's autistic. We don't know if diet plays a part in her cognitive and physical abilities. There are million unknowns for each thing we think we know. So, how in the world can we be left to make decisions about what is best for Olivia when we have no idea exactly what that is?

We take a leap of faith. We decide that we will see all the doctors, read all we can, advocate for her, push her, try new things, never give up, and travel this journey together. Brian, me, Jacob, and Olivia.

I've said so many times that Olivia has taught me so much. There is so much truth to that statement that the words don't do it justice. She is an angel sent to us from God. She is meant to be my daughter. Brian's daughter. Jacob's sister. She is a miraculous mystery. And just when I start the "why's" and "what if's," I'm reminded yet again that it isn't about that at all.

It's about love.

It's about the fact that I would lay down my life for that baby girl. It's about the fact that she has drawn me closer to God than I've ever been in my life. It's about how amazed we are that God has entrusted us with her precious life.

It's not easy. But, just like any other parent, we make hard decisions, unsure of the outcome. So, gluten is back, at least for now. Her sleep patterns have changed for the worse in the last two days. The first night, we put her down at 11:00 p.m. and she was still wide awake at 5:00 a.m. If this continues, we'll take gluten back out and see what happens.

Faith. Hope. And Love.

We have Faith. Faith that our loving God is in control and can use Olivia for His good.

We have Hope. Hope that one day Olivia will walk and talk. Hope that our lives will continue to be blessed by her.

But, oh how true it is- the greatest of these is Love.